37 Weeks (Two weeks and five days to go)

Yesterday I packed my bag for the hospital. We have two weeks and five days until our Baby Boy's due date. I struggle to write how I am feeling because part of me is so excited to meet this little guy inside of me and another part is soaking up the time I have with David. The David and Amber stage will be over and family stage will begin. I have no doubt it will be wonderful, but I also know full well that our lives will change a lot. Our conversations have begun to change-- it seems we talk about kids and raising kids a lot with our friends and between David and I. Our house is filling with play mats and swings and toys. We now have bottles in our pantry and baby toys in our bathroom. It's pretty crazy how our house has already transformed. 


Overall, I've really enjoyed being pregnant and I will miss the commotion of our boy inside of me. He brings us so much joy and happiness already. Speaking of joy, I found another song by Sara Groves that makes me cry (which isn't hard to do these days). Fittingly, it is called "I Can't Wait". My favorite lyrics in this song explain how our boy will teach us about things that really matter. With his young, fragile and soft heart, he will re-teach me about dreams and living from my heart. I'm really looking forward to learning from his imagination and being reminded of what it means to have a "child-like" heart, free of bondage and wounds and the callousness that time can bring.   

I Can't Wait
When you reach the proper age
I will teach you to read and you can turn the page
How to dress and tie your shoes
Your one plus ones, and your two times two's

And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important things
And all that i have lost along the way
And I can't wait

As you grow, I'll show you things
How to ride your bike and kick your legs out on the swings
To fold your hands and bow your head
How to say your prayers before you go to bed
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important things
And all that I have lost along the way
And I can't wait

How do you sleep so peacefully?
How do you trust unflinchingly?
How do you love so faithfully?
How do you dance so joyfully?

Oh you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important (essential) things
And all that i have lost along the way
And I can't
No I can't
Come teach me
Of love and dreams
And all the most essential thing
And all that I have lost along the way
Cause I can't wait 


Last night, David took these pics of me-- my size and shape make me laugh.